I just want to feel FUCKING HAPPY

All I want is to feel happy again. I have all of the pieces in which to do so, except for one big fat gaping hole that keeps me from it. I want a husband and children. And I feel strongly that my desire for this is exactly what will keep me from it. Maybe I just get to be the number 1 Auntie of all time, which don't get me wrong, is awesome. But I just feel, *fuck*, unfulfilled. I don't see that changing anytime, or any way, soon. Lookin a little grim, folks. Not gon lie. Lookin a little mother fucking face palming toe stubbing shit stepping red lighting grim.